Yes, I Am A Wanna Be! (a letter to you)
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You may think that calling me a wanna be is an insult. If that’s what it takes to make you feel better then go right ahead. I take it as a compliment because unlike you I know who and what I wanna be. So go ahead and tell everyone that I am a wanna be because you know what, you are absolutely right.
I WANNA BE the person that leaves an impression in your life. The type that when you look back at a memory of me you laugh about. I WANNA BE the one that makes you laugh ‘til you cry. I WANNA BE thought of fondly.
I WANNA BE be the best mother I can be to my children and become their friend as they get older. I WANNA BE the proud mom every time my little one learns a new word and continues to come out of his shell.
I WANNA BE the type of wife men dream of. The one that has her husbands back no matter the matter. Be his best friend, his team mate and partner in crime. Fulfill his every need and desire. Do or die... I WANNA BE able to do it on my own if things don't work out.
I WANNA BE able to get rid of the negative people in my life and not feel bad about doing so just because I’ve known them over 20 years. I WANNA BE able to move forward and not feel bad after I cut them off.
I WANNA BE an insanely creative, painter, singer, writer, dancer and comedian. I WANNA BE known for my artistry not for your jealousy or hatred of me.
I WANNA BE able to express what makes my heart skip a beat without seeing that "WHATEVER" smirk on your face.
I WANNA BE the happiest I don’t believe I have ever been within myself yet. I WANNA BE open to change and not be so afraid of it.
I WANNA BE able to let everyone know who I really am, what I love and how I think, what the real me is capable of. I WANNA BE accepted.
I WANNA BE able to tell you to go screw yourself for making me feel like crap so many years ago when I tried to be truthful with you about myself and you turned your back on me.
So go right ahead and continue to call me a wanna be. It doesn’t phase me. People will see when they truly need you the most all you'll do is make up excuses for not being there. Go ahead and continue to keep living in a box decorated to perfection. Only know that when it is time to be unwrapped people will see through your facade and will realize how mean, nasty and selfish you truly are and have always been.
Published Sunday May 15, 2011
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Hi ahorseback, it is partly based on me and some other females I know that also go thru this. I see that no matter how much we try to better ourelves someone will be there trying to crush and steal that dream away.
It can be a so called friend, spouse, your own children and parents, someone will always try to put doubt in your heart so that you continue to question your ability. We just need to learn to let things go.
Its all about moving on, having hope and having faith in oneself first I always say.
Thank you for stopping by...
Right on Julie !I always encourage going for the best instead of good enough. Well stated here !
Thank you Tony...
I have been somewhat fortunate, coupled with some work and time, to become known as the person I wannabe in my present community. Some of the work entailed attending discussion groups where I shared my point of view and honestly noted where I wasn't communicating well, where I was using words that I thought represented ideas only to find those words meant something else to my audience, so I refined my language week after week until I was understood, and found my thoughts and values not only understood but also respected. I share your creative passions, obviously I write stories/essays/poems or what else am I doing on Hubpages, I compose music, play an instrument, sing, and perform for audiences, and am well enjoyed by some for that, and I paint, yet I only began making my paintings public, thinking I wannabe better at it, and discovered folks liked my paintings as is and I made some sales and been told "I got such and such a frame for your painting and I love how it looks in such and such a room" and so on. After several years of living in my community I announced I was going to move away and holy cow never realized until then how loved I was in my community. So, so far I haven't been able to move away, to push myself away from my position in the community and all that love, but at the moment I am away at the location I had planned to move to, and realize I don't want to start all over getting myself known in a new community, yet, if I have to, I suspect it may be quicker and easier this time for the time/work I did in the prior community. If interested in seeing my paintings look at http://acryllicpainting.com/ You already know where to see my writing. Some ten years ago, while living in Seattle, a friend there said to me "You try too hard to be what you already are."
Thank you for stopping by. I will definitely check out your website.
Loved this!
Awesome! You just turned me into a Wannabe!
Yey vicwik! *smiling*
ahorseback Level 7 Commenter 12 months ago
Julie 2 , the only thing this isn't is funny , other than that I pushed all of the buttons, I really hope this isn't the reality of how someone made you feel. And if it is ,throw those negative people out of your house and life ....now. and good riddance Be well Julie...